One word

Dwell – to delay, to linger, to abide, to remain, to inhabit, to reside

This one word has been showing up even though I wasn’t paying attention. Now that I have had a chance to take a few deep breaths, I am noticing how this word describes life these last four months.

There is no easy way to tell you that we said goodbye to dad last week. The last year was hard on him. The quarantine and isolation, even harder. I was able to start visiting again and for those few visits I am very grateful. But finally, he was worn out, ready to go, ready to be reunited with mom. He did not linger, did not delay. He closed his eyes and took his last breath. My sister and I were by his side.

I will miss dad. We have spent a lot of time together the last 5 years. But this little boy, the one who shares his great grampa’s middle name, he will help me linger with the memories of this man, a dad, a grampa, a great grampa, a man who lived a very good life.

Today I am joining with Honoré and sharing an update on my journey with my 2020 One Little Word.

Published by Juliann

Recently retired and ready for adventure

11 thoughts on “One word

  1. Thinking of you, Juliann, and the hard stuff that your heart has had to navigate during such a complicated time. I’m so grateful for you that you got to spend a lot of time with your Dad…that you were with him…and that part of him lives in on your grandson. What a gift that will be as time continues to pass. xo

  2. Love this photo as you move forward with retirement and a new normal for you. So happy you were able to see him his last few weeks and be with him at the end.

  3. I am so sorry for your loss, Juliann. It sounds like your father had a very full life and left it the way most of us would wish to go — at peace, surrounded by loved ones. I hope that every minute you spend with your grandson brings back the good memories.

  4. I am sorry for your loss, Juliann. I am very glad you were able to visit your father and glad that you and your sister were by his side as he departed. Sending hugs, peace, and loving memories to you and your family.

  5. I’m so sorry for your loss, Juliann, but I admire the bravery you have shown in telling us about it and in accepting that it was the right time for him. I’ll be thinking of you and wishing you peace. Take comfort with your little guy as much as you can!

  6. I am so sorry for your loss, Juliann. I am glad you could be with your dad at the end… and that you have grandbabies to come home to snuggle!

  7. I am sorry your Dad has passed away. I am glad you were able to be with him at the end of his life. It is never easy to lose someone. May your children and grandchildren carry his memory into the future.

  8. Juliann, thank you for writing this and sharing it. I’m so sorry for your loss but find relief in knowing that you were with him. I’m thinking of you.

  9. oh my friend, that photo is The Best, and I can only think that your dad and mom are smiling at you … living and loving your family, carrying on the stories they started. hugs. prayers. love.

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